Borrowing from a very honest blog, http://www.patheos.com/blogs/kiwimormon/2014/02/a-former-bishops-doctrinal-dilemmas/
Ganesh Cherian -- who is
currently serving as a stake high counselor in New Zealand, expresses in his
words my frustrations and concerns about the church's attempt at honesty.
"In what
appears to be an attempt to deal with several vital historical issues
propagated by the Church throughout the years, they have begun producing essays
since late 2013 under its "Gospel Topics" section of its lds.org
website, attempting to reconcile the facts with what has been taught by earlier
leaders and church manuals.
In an
October 2013 general conference talk, President Uchtdorft gave an impassioned
plea to those who have left the church, admitting mistakes in leadership and
promising a place for those who doubt. Since then, it feels like the church has
changed. While Uchdorft's talk seemed extraordinary at the time, in retrospect
it feels like it was a preface for that change. Change that is not without its
challenges.
(Referring to a particular priesthood
lesson) one of my fellow high-priests
informed us that two friends (a former Bishop, and a Stake President) in
England had recently left the church over the 'Race and the Priesthood' essay.
As dutiful leaders. they had instructed their congregations, referring to 'the
seed of Cain' explanation for withholding the priesthood from black members of
the church until 1978. This recent 'clarification' had apparently undermined
their understanding of both revelation and doctrine. Though I haven't left the
church, this shift to more transparency is a challenge for me as well. Not
because I don't welcome these revisions. They seem very fair and thoroughly
researched. But like my fellow high priests, I too used these now discarded explanations
and doctrines throughout my leadership to teach - and now I'm left to wonder.
Each [of the essays] is a challenge to the seemingly authoritative version of our history.
Drawing on historical evidence and scholarship, these essays go further than
any previous official publications issued by the church in contradicting those
narratives that good members have long repeated as justifications for our more
curious doctrines and practices. And naturally, many are baffled.
After a
careful reading of the new source material it would appear that the First
Vision account as we have come to know it, was virtually unheard of for the
first decade of the Church's existence. What we now regard as pivotal to our
claim to divine mandate was absent for the first members, leaving many questions
over what those founding Mormons actually believed about the nature of the
Godhead, and what caused them to join the church?
I have
repeated stories to my ward to justify particular church practices. I have
given the hard line on church policies and doctrines and have held people
accountable. As recently as June, I reasoned with a friend that polygamy was
needed because there were so many more women than men at the time, an argument
that the polygamy essay seems now to repudiate."
Imagine the position this man and so many others in the Mormon Church
are in. For years, he followed party lines and repeated the history as he was
instructed. Now, because the church is trying to 'come clean,' so to speak, by
admitting historical problems of its past, there is a problem. Everything that
the members were taught before these essays were printed was apparently based
on lies or half-truths. This was the crux of the Complaint made in 2010 by a
group of Swedish Saints. http://www.scribd.com/doc/155365831/Turley-Jensen-Stockholm-2010 (Notice how the first 30 minutes of answering questions is spent preaching and how, at the end, they have run out of time and can't [or won't] finish answering their questions.)
Cherian continues:
"All
of this has caused me to grapple with my own questions. Is it possible that I
have hurt people with doctrines and dogmas that in the light of these essays
seem to sit on shaky ground? I understand how essential it is to 'sustain' the
Brethren but, these days, I live with a caution that those ideals that I
believe today could be dismissed by future First Presidencies. I also question
myself regarding how blameless I am in my representation of these doctrines as
definitive? Was I complicit in telling stories I suspected were problematic?
Could I have asked more questions, been more thoughtful, mindful? How did I get
to this place where I have cause to wonder about my own, and the church's
integrity?
Today, I am
reeling from the translation of the 'Book of Mormon' essay. Exactly how was I
to know that Joseph Smith got the words to the Book of Mormon by burying his
head in a hat? How was I to know that a stone he found in a well was
instrumental in this process of translation? Every picture, or video I have
ever seen has him sitting at a table with the gold plates before him pouring
over these 'curious characters' by the light of a candle! Was I naive to have
faith in this story? Was I wrong to retell this story as a teacher, as a
missionary, or as a priesthood leader? What am I to make of a story I find
confounding and frankly bizarre?
I am left
to wonder where I go from here. I am torn. I love my church and credit where I
am in my life to years of church service - but I cannot ignore the dishonesty.
I feel aggrieved that in attempting to sustain and perpetuate stories of faith,
the church has accredited doctrines to God that are simply fictions. Can such a
chasm be bridged as President Uchtdorf suggests?
As we file
out of class, a fellow high councilor remarks, 'Isn't it interesting that
today's challenge to our faith is coming directly from the church?'"